today.

One year. It feels like yesterday in a lot of ways, and it also feels like forever…like we are finally living the life I think we were always meant to live. I can’t remember a time I didn’t love her.

I haven’t been able to come up with adequate words for much of this Love, which is frustrating because I have words for just about everything. I thought that by now I’d have at least sorted through this day one year ago well enough to describe what it felt like to fall in love in a doorway in an instant with somebody I’d known for a decade. But here we are, and I’m still just as awestruck and wordless as I was then…maybe moreso. The magic and wonder of just getting to wake up together nearly does me in every single morning.

One thing I do know for sure is that I’m better because of her in so many ways. There have been hard days for sure, and there has been more heartbreak than either of us imagined there would be. For me (and I think she would agree), this has been a year of so much healing. Some of it happened easily and some of it was more like intense physical therapy, but my heart is so much more whole today than it was a year ago. Even knowing what I know now, I wouldn’t change a thing about the past year.

Thanks for loving me, Amber.  There’s no place I’d rather be than with you and nobody I’d rather share this crazy life with. I’ll take every hard thing, every tear that’s fallen and more, if it means we get to live this life together. I’d choose this (and you) over and over again. (Also, we take a lot of selfies.)
xoxo, k
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She is the sweetest thing that I know
You should see the way she holds me when the lights go low
Shakes my soul like a pot hole, every time
Took my heart upon a one way trip
Guess she went wandering off with it
Unlike most women I know
This one will bring it back whole
Daisies, daisies perched upon your forehead
Oh my baby, lately I know
That every night I’ll kiss you you’ll say in my ear
Oh we’re in love aren’t we?
Hands in your hair, fingers and thumbs baby
I feel safe when you’re holding me near
Love the way that you conquer your fear
You know hearts don’t break around here
Oh yeah yeah yeah , yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
She is the river flow in Orwell
And tin wind chimes used for doorbells
Fields and trees and her smell, fill my lungs
Spent my summer time beside her
And the rest of the year the same
She is the flint that sparks the lighter
And the fuel that will hold the flame
Oh roses roses laid upon your bed spread
Oh my, hold this, oh this, I know
That every night I’ll kiss you you’ll say in my ear
Oh we’re in love aren’t we?
Hands in your hair, fingers and thumbs baby
I feel safe when you’re holding me near
Love the way that you conquer your fear
You know hearts don’t break around here
Oh yeah yeah yeah
Well I found love in the inside
The arms of a woman I know
She is the lighthouse in the night that will safely guide me home
And I’m not scared of passing over
Or the thought of growing old
‘Cause from now until I go
Every night I’ll kiss you you’ll say in my ear
Oh we’re in love aren’t we?
Hands in your hair, fingers and thumbs baby
I feel safe when you’re holding me near
Love the way that you conquer your fear
You know hearts don’t break around here
Oh yeah yeah

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